A Year in the Hole Has Taken its Toll
I think people become a bit too focused on material solutions for mental health problems. Certainly, they're important, but you can do everything "right" and still be miserable. It's quite easy.
Really, what I want to focus on right now is my mindset. I already have a picture of what I'd like to do, but without my mindset in the right place, any progress I make is going to get chewed up and thrown out by a mind that insists on doing more and more, and that I'm not doing enough. I'm going to try to focus on contentment, on not treating the years of struggle as just "wasted". They didn't pass exactly how I wanted them to, but that doesn't mean there's no value in them, or that they don't offer me anything to learn and grow from.
It will be hard, of course, and it will likely both demand and produce material change, but it's the only way forward for me, so forward I go.